been a while, so sorry about that.

i've been really down ever since the thing with markus. amber and katrina seem to be handling it well, but matt and darrell haven't talked to mark since. it sucks. everyone's all against each other and mark is just tossed in the middle, like a bomb really. i worry about that kid; so afraid he's gonna do something when no one's around. i haven't gotten to him yet. maybe if i called... but i don't have his number and matt won't give it to me, so i guess i'll try when school starts. i hope he didn't do anything stupid on the week off...

downside? everything.

Markus is a total asshole.

he comes out to me saying that he's gay and doesn't know what to do about kristi. um hello, just dump her! she's not that great of a person anyway, but he "can't do that". this sux and he expects ME to help him. look, i'm not upset at all that he's gay, but c'mopn. why are you dating someone if they don't have the right equipment? plus, i feel bad because sometimes ytou have to wonder if he's ever had thoughts about me. dudes, i have no problem with gay people, but i'm straight and to think a gay guy is checking me out kinda makes me uneasy. sorry y'all.

darrel and maddie are hopelessly in love and sucking at each other's faces every moment that they have. i've decided she wasn't that big of a loss if she puts out that easy. i don't want a slutty whore people. look, if a girl is going to put out like that then i'm not even going to look at her...

meh, later.

Chris broke up with Amber.

haha, i actually typed a whole sentence usuing real typing skillz, but anyway, it doesn't matter. he's an asshole and u deserve better.... even tho everyone's already told you that don't give up hope. we love you...

ok, now that i had a completely flaming moment, things are just messed up. this gurl, maddie... she's... ignorant. lol, jk. she's the absolute greatest, the one i was trying to write a song for. i found out today that darrel asked her out "unknowing" that i kinda had feelings for her, so i'm a lil pissed at myself for not speaking up. on the flip side, markus came out to me the other day... yeah. thank god no one from church reads this or else he'd kill me. but hey, all you "subscribers" don't know him so i couldn't care less....

i'm bored out of my sad little mind. Darrel's at church, Markus is busy with his new gf, *Kristi, she blows ass chunks* and Amber's grounded. Damnit, no hanging out for poor Jak today. God, i really just don't have any friends, do i?

sitting with a melted milkshake is not good, i've figured this out in the last hour. i'm so smart. going to leave and listen to some Starting Line. No Am, you can't have Kenny... Katrina's already owned him. Besides... you have Chris...